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| Time: | 5:35 am. |
| Music: | "is it a mouse? is it a mouse?". |
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so..... i heart bill
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Wednesday, December 7th, 2005
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| Time: | 3:50 pm. |
| Mood: |  fucking pissed off. |
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FUCKING ASSHOLE
DON'T REPEATEDLY TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK IM DOING WRONG WHEN ALL IM TRYING TO DO IS MAKE THE GOD DAMN SITUATION BETTER!! YOU FUCKING ARGUE WITH ME ABOUT IT LIKE A FUCKING 3 YEAR OLD AND WHEN I FINALLY SAY IT'S NOT WORTH IT AND SAY "ok... im listening go ahead" WHAT DO YOU FUCKING DO?!?! YOU FUCKING START UP WITH THE "YOUR NOT LISTENING" CRAP! I DID NOTHING BUT TRY TO FUCKING UNDERSTAND AND IM SORRY IF IM TOO STUPID TO YOU... BUT YOU NEED TO FUCKING EXPLAIN YOURSELF AND TALK LIKE A NORMAL HUMAN BEING INSTEAD OF FUCKING GENERALIZING ABOUT EVERY GOD DAMN THING AND FUCKING SAY WHAT'S ON YOUR GOD DAMN MIND. DON'T FUCKING TELL ME THAT I DON'T CARE AND IM JUST BEING MEAN AND I NEVER LISTEN AND ALL THIS BULL SHIT! WHY DON'T YOU GROW UP, SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH AND LISTEN TO ME ONCE AND A WHILE AND YOU'LL SEE THAT YOU'RE THE FUCKING ASSHOLE WHO NEEDS TO REALIZE WHAT THE FUCK YOU'RE DOING WRONG, YOU FUCKING HYPOCRITE!
AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
ok...im done.
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Sunday, December 4th, 2005
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life...
why is it that when you're trying to get out of something... when you're trying to leave, the thing you want to escape from gives you all the reasons to stay?
it's funny how life works out
the ones we need don't know we're there
if i were sand and you were oceans
the moon would be why you're pulled to me
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Friday, November 4th, 2005
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Take your eyes off me
There's nothing here to see
Just trying to keep my head together
And as we make our vow
Let us remember how
There's nothing good that lasts forever
Time out on the running boards
We're running
Through a world that lost its meaning
Trying to find a way to love
This running
Ain't no kind of freedom
Feel the touch of grief
You stand in disbelief
Can steal the earth from right beneath you
And falling in so far
They know just where you are
Yeah, but there ain't no way to reach you
Time out on the running boards
We're running
Through a world that lost its meaning
Trying to find a way to love
This running
Ain't no kind of freedom
Of freedom
Yeah, yeah...
It's time to clean these boots
Fold up these parachutes
The word's goodbye, but I can't say it
The end is close at hand
I think we understand
There ain't no use trying to delay it
Time out on the running boards
We're running
Through a world that lost its meaning
Trying to find a way to love
This running
Ain't no kind of freedom
Freedom... freedom... freedom
Fasten on my mask
I'm bending to the task
I know this work is never finished
And if I close my eyes
I can still see you dancing
Laughing loud and undiminished
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Monday, October 17th, 2005
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| Time: | 7:41 pm. |
| Mood: |  pretty good. | | Music: | bonnie. |
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some of the hardest things in life... can turn out to be the easiest.
"love love love love love."
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Monday, October 10th, 2005
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Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
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everything is really fucking stressful. i hate having to make such fucking HUGE ASS decisions... but it has to be done. i know what i have to do... i just have to do it... and i don't know if i can, if that makes sense. i guess... im just gonna have to deal with what comes to me... and take things one step at a time... and not think so hard about everything and everyone... just about what i want. (well maybe a little about others cuz i can never make my own decisions without putting others' feelings in the way, sadly)... but it comes down to what i want now. and what's gonna come out of everything.
i don't want to regret anything.
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Wednesday, September 14th, 2005
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| Subject: | fuck this |
| Time: | 2:52 pm. |
| Mood: |  bitchy. | | Music: | "BETELGEUSE BETELGEUSE BETELGEUSE!!". |
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RIGHT NOW I FEEL AS IF IM GOING TO EXPLODE WITH FRUSTRATION!!!
AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! KILL KILL!! DIE DIE!!
stress... it's a killer.
p.s. MOTHER FUCKING BITCH... I HATE YOU... YOU ARE THE MOST PATHETIC, REDICULOUS, UGLY ASS, STUPID FUCKING ASS HOLE OF A HUMAN BEING. WAY TO FUCKING MAKE A FUCKING HUGE DEAL OF EVERYTHING AND THEN TOSS IT ALL AWAY LIKE NOTHING EVER HAPPENED! FUCK YOU!.... OH AND I HOPE TO GOD THAT YOU SCREW EVERYTHING UP... AGAIN!
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Wednesday, September 7th, 2005
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| Subject: | hahaha |
| Time: | 10:58 pm. |
| Mood: |  oh god, how you suck!. | | Music: | dishwasher. |
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wow... you really DO suck at life don't you...?
some people never cease to amaze me... oh thank you.
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Tuesday, September 6th, 2005
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| Subject: | HELP ME |
| Time: | 6:38 pm. |
| Mood: |  ..Too... BORED!! AAAHHH. | | Music: | damn voices again. |
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no joke... im so bored that in any second... i will rip my eye balls out to play with.
save me.
please
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Monday, September 5th, 2005
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Sunday, September 4th, 2005
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so today i got some floor mats for my car. sooo cute, they have little froggies on them and they match jo really well.
i went to the movies with scott melissa and melissa's date, adam, to the movies friday. we saw red eye which could've been better. i thought it would've been a little scarier than it was... it was more poppy-outty and stuff. oh well.
hopefully i can get a job at the y. my mother said that they are looking for help so i think i shall apply so i can pay for the way-too-fucking-expensive gas. i have yet to fill my own tank cuz my family has me drive everywhere and fills it for me... but that won't be for long.
tmw im gonna do lots of laundry cuz i have no undies left... plus i want all my clothes to be clean for school. yuck. hopefully i'll get my schedule changed so i can have a nicer senior year...
come on, steal me.
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Thursday, September 1st, 2005
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so today i got to go to thatcher park with melissa and jon... which was awesomeness. we listened to loud fun music with all the windows rolled down and my head out of the window on the way home when jon drove home. yay. freakin awesome friends... love love love. jon says "rebekah stop touching me inappropriately. (rebekah spells that 'inapprprd'.)" wow... jons a dork. but it was fun cuz no one was home... all at jimminy peak (sp?). so we walked the trail and jon told me to bring a blanket... but we ended up not using it haha. and we ate teddy grams and drank pink lemonade. oh yeah. and we had a freaking awesome time. booyah.
i love my friends.
p.s. morning sex = awesome
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Wednesday, August 31st, 2005
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Tuesday, August 30th, 2005
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so i got the ring that i bought scott for our 3 year anniversary... FINA-FUCKING-LLY.
i gave the ring to scott on the anniversary to make sure it fit him, but i took it back to get it inscribed and to shrink it for him. (1/4 size shrink and script "SH & RR")
i was told that it would only take 2 weeks.
3 weeks later i call to see if it was done... and they said "well, we already shrank it for you but we are going to send it to the lady who does inscriptions at the beginning of next week." i was a good sport and let that one slide... for a little while
so i get a call today (2 weeks AFTER i had called) to tell me that the ring was done.
i go in to pick it up and they didn't have it in script... it's in fucking ugly-ass block letters and it looks like a 2 year old did it. i was (and still am) sooooo fucking pissed off.
not only did they take 3 weeks LONGER than they said it would take but they did not have it they way that i wanted it... the way THEY SAID it could be done.
being the nice girl i am... i walked out of the store calmly after paying the nice lady behind the desk, and called instead!
"yeah, hi. i just came in today to pick up my ring... i didn't want to cause a seen in the store. i was told when i gave you guys the ring that it would be done in 2 weeks. it took almost a month later. i was also told that it could be done in script and now it is done in block letters... i think it's unacceptable to not have the ring done how i wanted it how I WAS TOLD it would be, and when I WAS TOLD it would be finish. even though i did still pay for the ring, i want you to know that you have lost me as your costumer"
"im so sorry, we hate to lose costumers... is there anything we can do?"
"no. i just wanted to say that i was very unhappy with the results and i know it's not your fault but i will not be dealing with joyelles jewelers again"
"im so sorry, i wish things would have been done for you. i am truly sorry"
"goodbye"
NEVER GO TO JOYELLES JEWELERS... EVER!
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Monday, August 29th, 2005
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| Time: | 9:55 pm. |
| Mood: | bitchy. | | Music: | isaiah non stop talking. |
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my schedule sucks and people will die...
1st semester
1. wildlife bio - tulloch (... to be dropped)
2. pre-calc - turner
3. pe/free
4. free
5. economics - majewski (haha... jew...)
6. pig - defilippi
7. lunch
8. creative writing - fogle
2nd semester
1. ecology - "07"...? (... to be dropped)
2. comedies - yeara
3. pe/free
4. early childhood - smith, joanne (... to be dropped)
5. free
6. pre-calc - assael
7. lunch
8. sculpture - dirolf (... maybe dropped)
if all does not go my way... someone will pay. it is my senior year damn it and it WILL be easy...
p.s. to all who have mr. wilson.... do not touch... he is mine thank you.
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Friday, August 26th, 2005
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| Time: | 6:41 pm. |
| Mood: |  maaaddd. | | Music: | "aw, you have kitties" melissa. |
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my mother is crap... i want to see a movie and i'd be home only 5 minutes after 9 (literally) and my mother won't let me go. anger.
p.s. melissa is here... and we are gonna have some sweet sex later if you want to join. 2296077... booyah.
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Thursday, August 25th, 2005
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going to saturn today to get my car cleaned by sexy, oily, dirty men in jump suits. also to get the trunk looked at cuz it's all poop and stuff. then prolly going to go to dinner w/ josh and g-ma and abe. fun fun fun. then maybe i'll bring back cans for my mommy and get a little gas money... more fun fun fun.
yesterday i went to the track with scott and his family. i was attacked by bees and peter (scott's step-father) became my hero. scott was a little grumpy but all is good. on our way out, a snobby rich old lady gave me the dirtiest look. i was wearing a little skirt (so cute) and she just glared. i wanted to say, "hey! i'll let you borrow it sometime k?!" that would've been great. after we just hung out across the way and stuff... yum.
2 more weeks... ew... gross.
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Monday, August 22nd, 2005
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why do i have to be psycho and get in these moods... crazy moods. yesterday was happy (great escape was a blast... too much to explain), but then it turned to blehk and then it turned to really sad... like crying so hard that snot was dripping and my throat killed... i think i scared scott.
i always fucking do that. i get all djfkls;jafk gjfd;lva for no fucking reason, then he tries to make me feel better, and i always fucking find SOMETHING wrong with how he's doing it... how he's TRYING to make ME FEEL BETTER! he tries so hard and i just don't see it sometimes, and then i do stupid things and then he has to go and then i start crying cuz i realize how much of an ass im being and then i burst out my side door and run out to his truck crying and then of course he stays and tries to make me feel better... again... and im fucking sick of it. i hate when i do it, and i've said all of this to myself before but i never fucking listen. he loves me and does SO MUCH for me...... and for some reason, i want more. im so selfish sometimes and i don't put into consideration that he does all he can. im an asshole.
p.s. i think i have a dependency problem.
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Saturday, August 20th, 2005
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| Time: | 10:14 pm. |
| Mood: |  hyper. | | Music: | "the sound of sara's blood dripping off her nose" ~ sara. |
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SLEEPOVER!!!!!!
me and jon (and jacki and sara) are SOOOO having a great sleepover... we're waiting for scott to get off of work... cuz then he's gonna join!!! and TTHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEENNNNN melissa is maybe gonna call when she's done with her family reunion stufferz and prolly join in on the fun. AAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNDDDDDDDDD my mommy told scott to buy lots of junk food so that we can have fun fun fun...
so far...
1. got into PJS!!!
2. strobe light madness... so fucking funny
3. jon tried to kill my sister... (she kinda almost broke her nose... and my rug will forever have her blood on it)
we have yet to have someone throw up, have someone eat a con-cock-tion of really gross food, PAINT OUR TOENAILS, and play... the 7 deadly sins game (maria's). booyah
p.s. maria got this really neat tattoo that says "a fuerza viva" (i believe) which means "by sheer strength" on her forearm. it looks really good. da bomb diggity.
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